When I used to drink I was like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. I was one person when I was sober and another when I drank. It was this mood altering obsession that turned into a laboratory experiment gone wrong! I thought I had found a secret magic potion, when in reality I found a mind altering poison.
- The devastation alcohol has caused me was enough to eventually scare me sober!
Towards the end of my drinking career my life was like a warewolf movie. The morning after I drank I never had a clue of what I did, where I was, or if I had hurt anybody. It was a non-stop nightmare. Since I couldn’t stop drinking, I thought the best solution to my problem was to shoot myself and finally end it.
- My drinking had escaladed almost to the point of no return
I started being afraid of my own shadow; it was like living in a Sci-Fi horror flick. After drinking hard for many years the effects of alcohol were more intense than in the beginning, they got so bad that I started hallucinating.
One night I was home alone watching TV in my living room and I remember not feeling my self that day, something felt not right. I had been drinking a lot that week and not eating right, so that night I figured I’ll only drink beer to cut back. As I was watching my movie, I started getting an uneasy feeling all around me, as if something was in the living room with me. I took a glance around and saw nothing; I thought I was being paranoid so I just got back to the movie. As I was sitting there watching the movie, this thing jumped on my shoulder and ran across my chest, I freaking out! By the time I reacted, it jumped behind the couch and disappeared. If I had to describe It, I would say it looked like some kind of little creature with a long tail. I suddenly jumped up and pushed the couch aside to see what it was, when I hear a noise coming from my bedroom. By this time I’m shaking and don’t know what to think. I run towards my room to see if I can hear where this noise is coming from. When all of a sudden from the corner of my eye, I see this things tail moving behind some books. All I can remember is my heart stopping and having chills run up and down my spine. At this point I was crazy enough to try and get this thing before it got me. So I charged at it and after wrecking my whole room and not finding a thing That night I eventually ended up scared drunk from the bad trip and ended up passed out on the floor.
- I didn’t now what was happening to me
It took me a long time to tell the difference between going crazy and a hallucination. At first I thought these hallucinations were some kind of strange phenomena happening to me. Even after I finally figured out that I was probably hallucinating, it was very frightening for me to know that if I over drank I was going to be teleported to another dimension. Let me add that going over board with my drinking happened all the time with me. My Hallucinations continued and I kept being just as freaked out about them.
- Even this was not enough to deter me from drinking
Even though I started telling the difference between real and not real, there were times that I went through some bone chilling experiences. No one needs to get to the stage of drinking I was at. Since I am an alcoholic this wasn’t a choice for me, drinking just got me there. Alcoholic hallucinations come at a later stage of alcoholism that can be life threatening and are very dangerous. They are definitely the side of drinking no one wants to meet. So, if you know you’re not an alcoholic, I can safely say, If you drink, please drink responsibly. But if you are, don’t drink at all!
