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I have learned that I have to train myself to be very quick when it comes to stinky thinking.  I have to be absolutely sure that alcohol is the worst answer to my problems when I start thinking about quiting on life or just plain thinking that I’m indestructible.

What I am trying to say is that as drinkers we don’t get a second to think about drinking because you will convince yourself in a second that drinking might be a good idea. 

Watch yourself closely when it comes to stinky thinking but don’t worry to much about how you are going to stay sober because if you truly want it, that comes alone and without your help.

I’m still cool after a few years and just think that I was scared stiff of sobriety!…coool!  love it!!!!  What was I thinking?

My wife and I were both born in California and lived there all are lives, till know.  We recently moved out of the country because of a medical infertility situation we ran into.  We both want children but have not had any luck yet.  We already spent a fortune in Los Angeles on treatment and we can no longer afford it,  so Argentina is now our new home, at least until we can have children.

Hard times like the one I’m living through now have always made me run and go drink to ease the pain.  I could never handle anything without drinking, especially anything like this.  Whenever I had a problem I would drink, It didn’t mater if it was good or bad the bottle was always the way I dealt with it.

Dealing with problems without alcohol was impossible for me to do in the past.  I always felt that no matter what I did I would never be able to do anything without drinking.  I truly felt that not only I couldn’t stop drinking but I wouldn’t be able to function without it.  I believed that it was somthing I could never do.

Fortunately the best part of sobriety for me is that I do things today without even thinking of drinking, no matter how bad things get. That is a miracle and it is sobriety working in my life today.

Today my wife and I have been living in Argentina for one year and we are 5 months pregnant, thank God.  If it wasn’t for sobriety I wouldn’t even be alive today to be enjoying this precious moment.  I am truly grateful for this beautiful moment in my life.  We will be living in Buenos Aires Argentina till the baby is born.  My wife still has some blood issues that we are dealing with but we are confident that everything will be all-right.

Every one of life’s events that I live through without taking a drink are small lessons that help me learn and build, my confedence that a healthy sobriety needs to flourish, grow and succeed.

Sobriety doesn’t matter if its slow or fast, its good and that’s all that should matter.  If you want sobriety, do not time yourself or put time lines on yourself, just be honest to yourself from now on and know that a lot of good is going to be coming your way.

I have been sober for almost four years and I usually feel the best when I go to a meeting of AA.  Since I went to my first meeting of AA I have been through a lot of ups and downs, but never had to drink over anything.  Even when I don’t go to meeting regularly I know I have them and that keeps that dark and crazy world I used to live in on check. 

When I hit my bottom I was crazy and in jail thanks to my vodka.  Hospitals, Jails, DUI’s, Accidents, was my world when I used to drink.  Today I am happily married and waiting for my first child.  The craziest thing I do today is have two lattes in one day, my life is not perfect but normal is perfectly OK.